1. Trying very hard not to hurt myself right now

    Tagged #sad #personal
     
  2. With my dad today

     

  3. my friend once gave me a rainbow set of sunglasses earrings and a few weeks ago one of them fell down the drain and i was late to go but i took apart the pipes under the sink to retrieve it, and then i rinsed it off and wore it anyway. 

    She’s my best friend mind you and they were yellow sunglasses

    Tagged #bffs #personal
     
  4. Saw some cool mushrooms at Starved Rock state park in Illinois

     

  5. "I can’t sleep without you. I don’t know what to do :("
    — When he still loved me
     

  6. "Officer, I was speeding because I have ice cream melting next to me. It will take 20 minutes more to get home so now I know it won’t be good, so you can have it I guess. Do you like cookie dough?"
    — What I should have said to the cop that pulled me over
     

  7. kaitie3:

    I WANT TO SEND HIM THINGS AND I WANT TO TALK TO HIM AND I WANT TO LET HIM KNOW I’M OKAY BUT I’M NOT REALLY OKAY BECAUSE I STILL WANT TO HUG AND LOVE HIM OH GOD WHAT IS THIS I WANT TO CRY BUT I TOLD MYSELF NOT TO I FEEL SO ALONE EVEN THOUGH THERE ARE 7 BILLION PEOPLE IN THIS WORLD AND I HAD TO GET STUCK ON HIM OH NO SOMEONE HUG ME PLEASE

     
  8. #lonely

     

  9. "Shout it at me and then I’ll give it to ya."
    — My manager regarding a stocking list and me shouting the name of stuff, and she giving me the number we have… we snickered about it for a good minute
     
  10. I feel lonely

     

  11. Details: I’m drunk and getting drunker. Girl, I wish I had some booty

    Tagged #personal
     

  12. i used to have a friend who read this blog every day even though he didn’t have his own tumblr. he called me kitten and let me spend the night a few ties. he bought me wine when i asked and was always there when i wanted to talk, even at 4am. His name was Nick and he was 30 years old when he died of alcohol poisoning yesterday. I last heard from him a week ago. He was depressed for a long time and struggled every day. 

    I will miss him. and wish i would have known.

    if any of you lovelies are sad, please let me know why you hurt. reach out and speak to me because i care about you all so much you are so beautiful. 

    I wish i would have told Nick i love him… maybe that would have changed things

     

  13. Suddenly, I saw his car everywhere. And other people wore his shirts and listen to the music he likes. He was in every memory of my past year. And every dream of him was happy, so no wonder I never want to wake up. I think about him every day. I haven’t heard from him in a long time, maybe I sent too many “I miss you” texts, and now it just sounds like breathing to him

     
  14. (Source: rings0fmary, via unheroically)

    Tagged #personal
     

  15. Eating Mac and cheese and drinking wine because I’m angry and lonely.
    Reaching out for help isn’t an option all the time

    Tagged #personal